Colours of my life

Sunday, November 29, 2009

seven days with out u!
i am feeling better! i must learn to be standing alone and stand strong sometime
cos every ppl will go someday! everyday every hours every min ppl die
we/ i must accept it! other ppl in the world will also have the same thing happen to them
i must also have a open mind set! i am still sad but i must stand again and move on
i will die someday i must enjoy my life before i am gone! enjoy means do thing that i need to do!
i going to visit my grandma now! later study at smu HAHAHA

PLS SHOW SOME RESPECT YOU FKER this is my blog not urs so get lost and fuck off
i am not acting being a batter person! u think i have a choice NO,
i don't care about ur damn useless life, pls face the world not gameS, get alive how old are you now!
LV is just a name IS NOT A BIG DEAL
AND ma also got sickness u want to see her die too! pls listen to her, i know u will say who treat me good i go paul their butt right NO,u think again ah pa say what before he die, afew week back
i am doing some on he wish pls be humble they are ur parent! sometime they are wrong u also must act like u are wrong u noe! SO PLS BE HUMBLE! don's talk without thinking, i hate it when u say "i play games don't disturb if not" game and human u should know! i have to say this
if u not happy come and talk to me face to face i also dun care about ur friend and ur whatever

<--Insert name here--> saw the colours @ 8:16 AM

Thursday, November 26, 2009

4th days without you

today wake up feel abit better
go school i tt i was late but ended up teacher is late, go in class nvr teach ask us to study yourself,
today wanted to go study with friends but friend have lesson and meet his gf
so never go study, then when eat with some friend then go home
today was a hot day, pa i will drink lot of water de, dun worry pa i still feel lonely without u
how we cold until like a prawn how u ask me to hug u or put mu leg across u, how u cover me when i was cold, i still miss everything u done for me! i hear sis say u call me but i nvr wake up sorry i was too tired sorry! then u call sis is to wake her up? i am happy u hear my word or u saw what happen! i am happy u did come back! :) pa i confirm tomorrow i will go friend house study don't worry! i will i will go study de!

I AM SORRY PA

ur son, lewis

<--Insert name here--> saw the colours @ 5:18 PM

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I MISS U DAD!

Labels: dad i miss u

<--Insert name here--> saw the colours @ 3:19 PM

3rd day without you!
morning wake up still feel not easy cos now every thing is new
no more scolding to wake me up! no more ah de later wake up do this do that
no more call from u ah de come home now and now what time already
pa i never go out after school le, school end i stright away go home le! hoping to see u agine but i know it will never happen anymore!
i noe u not want me to like this but is hard to get over it!
i already control my self not to do stupid thing not to get angry easily
but my heart is in pain when i see my sis, u say forgive i already do
if is last time i already scold her back, now i nvr even scold or say until she do over the line
i tt thing will change her thinking when dad as gone but she never change at all but ended up
get more bold act like she is the king, i really hope u will change to be better person leen! i cannot say u or what u will get angry easily, u know game and friend is not important then family! i really hate it when u say" when i play game dun disturb me or i will get angry" i hope u understand ,
i am asking u to change overnight just try ur best to change!
pa now i know how u feel about us,
SORRY FOR making u angry
I AM SORRY DAD

ur son, lewis

<--Insert name here--> saw the colours @ 12:25 PM

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

second days without u

i still feel sad,lonely and lost
cos i cannot accept the reality, i am trying to accept it is very hard to
my mind still fresh back the night u left me and is the week of my bday! i try to be strong every time when thing happen
but this time round is too heavy for me take it
i stop my self by drink beer to ease the pain of my!
i need more time to heal,
i am very stress my exam is coming how i am going to pass i left 7days of study then exam
i miss ur words, i miss ur voice, i miss ur face, i miss the night we slp together, i miss the day we eat together, i miss ur scolding and i miss everything u do for me!

I AM SORRY DAD

ur son, lewis

<--Insert name here--> saw the colours @ 10:33 AM

Monday, November 23, 2009

23 nov days without you
i really feel very lonely although i still have family around me
u are the closest to me, but i still say bad thing about u, disrespect u
now i realize everything u do is good for me, ur nag, ur beating and ur scolding
now i cannot hear ur scolding, cannot listen to ur nagging cannot feel the pain when u beat me
i dunno what to do, i want ur nag,beat,scolding i realize this is not a bad thing at all
u care u beat, u care u nag, u care u scold... i cannot show my strong side anymore i want just jump off my blk! i think and think u dun want to see me like this! u want to see me have a good life
now u are gone i believe u will bless me even i can't hear u or see u anymore!
im sorry dad!

ur son, lewis choo

<--Insert name here--> saw the colours @ 6:36 AM